New Stage | Life Update09:00
It's weird to think that in just a few days I'll be packing up the car with most of my belongings and moving just over 2 hours away from home. This time next week I'll be at university.
Growing up, I was never that interested in going to uni, I thought I'd just finish college and go straight into a job or apprenticeship so that I could learn whilst doing. But, around March last year, a few months into my AS levels, I started to really enjoy learning about psychology. This then got me thinking about possibly pursuing further education to learn more about it and here I am today with only a few days left before I do pursue it.
But please, don't ask me what I want to do with life, what do I want to do after uni etc because in all honesty, I have no idea. I know that I enjoy studying the subject but have no clue where I want to go with it. That's OK isn't it? To be honest, I don't even know where I'm going with this post, I just wanted to have a bit of a ramble, chatty post.
The kind of things I talk to myself about.
Currently, I'm feeling a complete array of emotions. I'm so frickin excited, but at the same time I'm terrified. I'm really happy to be moving away and meeting new people, but also sad to be leaving all my many friends (dat sarcasm,). It's weird. And, yes, I know everyone feels the same or, to put it like everyone says, 'everyone is in the same boat'. Can I just say that saying that makes no impact on me at all, it really doesn't help ease the nerves or anything - but hey, thanks for the effort of trying.
Like many others, although I'm looking forward to it, I'm also worried about the whole meeting new people, making new friends thing. I'm quite quiet. Shy. Introverted. I like having those one or two people around, you know, that certain friend or two who you, in social situations, make you feel more comfortable and you can fall back on them to have a conversation with so you don't look awkward. I've named them the 'social rock' friend. (Friend, you probably know who you are, if you happen to be reading this then shout out to you. Thanks for being my 'social rock').
However, I won't have anyone I know around which is both and good and bad thing. It's bad because there is the risk of me staying in my 'shell'. But on the other hand, it's good because I'll be forced not to rely on others in situations and be my own social rock (I just won't be able to have conversations with myself, as that would be weird whilst around new people).
So, yeah, meeting new people will be a thing, but also I'll be living with people - which I feel like will get some getting use to. Thankfully, I have a room to myself, I genuinely don't know how I'd cope if I had to share with someone because I need alone time. Seriously, if I was around people almost 24/7, I think I'd break after, at the very least, 3 days!
There is only one other girl I'm aware of that I'll be living with, the others either aren't in the facebook group or have seen me and been like 'oh dear, I think I'll see if I can change flats'.
But one thing I am wondering is what the whole kitchen situation will be like. I'm probably going to sound quite selfish saying this, but I can get a little possessive of any belongs - even food and drinks. And currently, I'm not really feeling the whole sharing, communal living thing. Who knows, my flatmates might feel the same way, or they could want to share everything. I'll be fine! As I keep telling myself.
Of course, I have to mention that I'm looking forward to focusing on just one subject that I enjoy, you know how it is blah blah blah. But I just don't know what to expect with the workload and everything. Also, not really concentrating or learning for like 3 months (I know that's nothing for those who have taken gap years) feels very odd, I feel in some sort of hovering stage. I'm guessing it'll take me a good few weeks to get back into the swing of things.
Okay, I think I've rambled enough. I'm just going to leave you with a nice cheesy quote about new beginnings.
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